You are the LIGHT of the world...

As 2010 makes its way i can't help but reflect on the year that is already behind me. When i look back i can't believe how much has happened! i have said over and over again to my Husband that this has been the hardest year of my life. i was pregnant for most of it which i must say was interesting and then i felt the chaos of being a new parent and having no clue what to do... IT WAS TIME TO GROW UP. even though i already considered myself to be mature and responsible there is nothing that makes you really grow up and put away selfishness like having a child! i found that it was no longer about just me and what i wanted it is now about Harper and making sure i provide him with the best atmosphere and love and everything he needs to grow up to be holistically healthy as an adult.
After the child chaos i started having very bad pains in the upper right part of my abdomen near my ribs... well the pain got sooo bad that it landed me in the ER and then got me in a hospital bed for the week and resulted in gallbladder surgery. i am thankful to God that i had a fast recovery and was able to be back to the usual within a couple days.
Nothing seemed to be normal in my life and after having a year of my body constantly changing and then my life as well... i desperately needed something stable... In this year, i have found that God is so GOOD, a rock, and He works good for all that love Him. i can't help but feel resolved as i write this knowing what is behind me and all that i have overcome in this year, and seeing what's ahead... A NEW YEAR. I am so thankful for my son Harper he is such a blessing to my life and would not trade him for anything. my new years resolution has many facets and there are many things i want to do and goals i want to reach but above all i want to be a LIGHT--to be a testimony and witness to God's goodness.!

He Makes All Things New

As spring peeks around the corner

i can't help but think about how wonderful it is to have seasons in Michigan.

every one a different view

they resemble life in every aspect

fall: the fall of humanity. once being perfect now fallen

winter: the pulling out of sin--renewal of mind, process of.

spring: rebirth, a new creation, a new era, a new life

summer: the act of living in God's will, growing in his hands.

whats interesting is that these stages repeat in life all with different situations

we are all growing, always going through seasons

Life, weather you live in Flordia or Michigan, is a a never ending cycleing of seasons

and i must say i am excited to see what spring has instore for me.

Little Treasure

Little tresure deep within

how or where do i begin

to explain the way i feel

how life so often seems unreal

i wish i knew a little more

and asked a little less

but i am still so young i guess

Life changes so rapidly

sometimes it gets hard to see

Just what God has for me

Little treasure deep inside

so many things i've tried to hide

i want so much more for you

so much i want to help you through

but even more i cannot control

sometimes lifes a giant hole

and so often we fall in.

A Time of Transformation

Who am I? This is a question i often ask myself. At my age i have seen a lot of change just as every one does. God is pieceing me together...Piece by Piece, and because of this i see i am changing even more. i have equated this change to being in a cocoon and that in time i will emerge and find myself a tov(good for its purpose) creation, a beautiful butterfly.
As i prepare for motherhood with my first child on the way i can't help but wonder what being a mom has in store for me...a whole new world. a whole new game.