Wow, i really don't know where to start. I guess first of all today is the anniversary of Chan's (my brother) death in 1999. Hard to believe that it has been 11 years since then and i am still growing old and time and changes are never ceasing. Not a day goes by that i don't wish he were here or wonder what he would be like today. I try not to dwell too much on those thoughts because the reality is he is gone and that has been something i have had to come to terms with throughout the years. When people we love pass away we are plagued with so many what ifs or i should haves, i don't think there is ever anyone that really feels they have said all they could say or has done everything they feel they could have done. It has taken me sometime to understand that what has happened has happened and that analyzing what i could have, should have done wont bring him back. 11 years later i have learned to take it as a lesson. A lesson to love and appreciate, to say things when they need to be said no matter how vulnerable saying them may leave you. to let people you love know that you care and love them. Let them know how they have blessed your life, and BE THERE when they are in need. Be honest with them through good and bad, even when the honesty could jeopardize your relationship. Love them enough to fight them. There are no words that i could say that would bring justice to how Chan, his life and his death, have affected my life. I believe that the person Chan was will forever be apart of who i am, and has played apart of who i have become and who i am becoming. I hope i make him proud.
In Memory of,
Channing (Chan) Gene Trowbridge
(2/19/77-5/12/99)
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