Success...

So I do not claim to be a writer. In fact i am terrible with gammer. While reading my posts you may find many errors so please bear with me... this blog is is an outlet for my thoughts and such, and also something for me to do while being a stay at home mommy.

This morning i woke up feeling successful. The sky was clear and blue and Harper was in a good mood (which makes a big difference on my day let me tell you!). Maggie was still sleeping so i got a head start on some chores i needed to get done. Lawrence made some coffee in the french press this morning before he left for work, so i poured myself a mug of what was left and added my favorite creamer (Italian Sweet Cream) and gulped in down. While Harper was watching his morning cartoons I just watched him and couldn't help but adore his every movement and be amazed at how much and how fast he has grown. Then it hit for the first time since being a mom... the name MOM. I am a mom... is this for real? Not only am I just a mom but a mom of 2 at that!!!

Where have I been?.....

I think i must have been in some kind of post pregnancy fog for the past 20 months... I feel like I finally woke up today and am fully present in all thats going on around me. Watching Harper play and listening to Maggie breathe while asleep. Awakening to the fact that I am a MOM was quite satisfying... it isn't a college degree, or a high paying job, it doesn't have a fancy name or any of such... But i felt SUCCESSFUL. I think i have achieved not exactly what i had set out to do but something better. How did i get so blessed to be able to witness two little miracles grow and ultimately change my life?

GOD is good